#1: Shifting from Numbers to Nourishment
Alright, so this is the beginning of me actually documenting my journey as I try—honestly—to heal my relationship with food. Not in theory, not from a place of “I’ve figured it all out,” but from right here, in real time.
For the past few months, I’ve been deep in macro tracking. Protein, carbs, fats—measured and logged down to the gram. And yes, my eating habits looked healthier on paper. I felt like I was “doing the right things.” But underneath it, I started to notice that I hadn’t really let go of control—I had just redirected it into numbers. It was still fear. It was still trying to get it perfect.
I found myself copying what I saw all over Instagram—egg whites, cottage cheese, protein bars, safe foods that check the boxes but don’t bring me any real joy. They weren’t bad meals… they were just flat. Lifeless. They weren’t mine. I was chasing a formula, and the truth is: the formula doesn’t exist. Not outside of me.
So today, I decided to do something different.
I didn’t track anything. I made food from whole ingredients, with color, flavor, and texture. I didn’t overthink it—I just asked what would feel good, what would nourish me, what would support my body right now. And something about it felt alive again. I wasn’t chasing perfection. I was actually participating in my own nourishment.
This shift is scary in some ways, because I don’t have numbers to hold onto. But it also feels like freedom. Like I’m building a relationship—not just following rules.
This isn’t about restriction anymore. It’s about release.
It’s about learning to listen.
It’s about letting food be a form of care—not control.
And no, I haven’t “arrived.” I’m still figuring it out. But this feels like the first honest step.
And I wanted to start writing it down, in case someone else out there is figuring it out too.
I’ll be honest—some of the meals I made during this shift were just okay... but some of them absolutely smacked. Like, meals that made me stop mid-bite and say “okay wait—this is everything.”
I’ll be adding those favorites below so you can try them too, or just use them as inspiration if you’re also figuring out what feels good to eat right now.
I will try to post as much as possible through this journey to keep it up to date and an accurate reflection in what changes I have seen in my mind and body :)